Feeling really blissful now~~~ someone cooked me home cooked food!

I have this dilemma going on about my weight. Technically, I’m underweight but I don’t look like an anorexic. Gained 7 pounds during the holidays and I was pretty excited about it although I broke my healthy diet regime by eating a lot of junk. Then after the holidays, I’m back to making my own food. My meals are a mix of dark green vegetables and high protein diet so that I can build more flesh instead of fat. Well, I do have my portion of carbs once in awhile when I do a lot of cardio. I’ve been dancing probably 3-4 hours daily to prepare for an upcoming show and I’ve lost the 7 pounds that I’ve gained! :S My dilemma is, I need to have carbs to fuel my energy source but at the same time I want to build more toned flesh and carbs are not helping! If I only have high protein diet, then I’m low on energy to dance. Yeah, you’ll probably say, include both carbs and protein in your diet! I can only eat certain amount of food. So if I put in carbs, I can’t take that much protein, which I need to help me flesh up and toned. So what’s the point of me taking carbs to fuel my energy to dance and can’t build flesh?? Defeats the purpose of exercise ain’t it?

Besides, I find that with a high protein diet, I tone really easy!! But kinda breathless after 5-6 continuous rounds of the dance routine LOL!!! I think I should start body pump exercise again to put on weight with flesh to compensate for the lost of weight because of too much cardio. *gotta go sabo somebody’s dumbells!*

p/s: by the way, as a rule of thumb, do not go to the extreme, too much protein kills!! And of course do not have zero carbs. It has to be balanced

Two days ago…hold on, it was yesterday. A friend invited me to join her and her colleagues for a go-carting session at the Shah Alam Stadium. I was pretty excited about it but hesitated to actually take a drive because I was kinda shy and didn’t wanna be dubbed as a “show-off”. Well, I was in the go-carting team in the junior league back during high school years. We raced around in narrow indoor tracks. But I decided to go for it since it was an outdoor track, a big one at that. And my friend’s colleague is a trained go-carter.

Jumped into one of those carts with max speed of 80km/hr, I was surprised that there’s no safety belts to put on! I didn’t really care anyways, rev the engine and off I went onto the tracks. It was really different driving out in the open air track. Track was super rough,  it was wider and the carts were faster! I got such huge adrenaline rush from the speed! I think I’m never gonna race in indoor tracks ever again! Although I was numb from all those vibrations where it made my glasses clatter all the time, it was all worth it!

As I got more comfortable, I decided to speed up. Went on top speed at the turns and the feeling was like “SHIT I’M GONNA DIE IF THE CART FLIP OVER!” And soon I caught up with this guy wearing silver helmet, he is a regular racer I think. He decided to race with me, GAME ON! I had so much fun! He’s such a good competitor and he won! Even if I did not skid off track when one of my tires rolled onto the elevated barrier, I couldn’t have won the race too LOL! It has been so long since I last raced with a go-cart!

Well, all good things always comes to an end, some guy flagged us all down and we all exited into the pit stop. I was feeling kinda woozy when I got out from the cart, I guess it was the sun, heat and extreme vibrations. Then I realized, I just ruined my white khakis! DAMNET! Fuel spilled all over my legs when I hit the elevated barrier and I did not notice it! Thank goodness it did not combusted into flames :O

This outing really made my day I was so pumped up despite suffering from the G-Force pull now. Whole upper half of my body is aching and stiff LOL!! However, this is not gonna be my last time racing there, I’m gonna go for a drive again probably after CNY

I think I’m at that happy place again…not 100% but getting there

Was watching House MD just now. There was the scene where the patient is dying in 24 hours time, so the doctor asked her who would she like him to call. And she said she have no one to call, not even friends. Depressing right? Then the thought occurred to me, let say I’m in her shoes, who would I want to spend my last few hours with? After a long time of thinking, I realized that it’s not my family that I want to spend time with…it’s you guys. Bindy, Jill and Wendy. Yes it’s you guys that I want to spend my time with You all meant the world to me

I just can’t get enough of Sugizo’s performances!! Especially the number “Enola Gay” at the RISE TO COSMIC DANCE concert! He just blew my mind away with his style! Not that he’s faster or wilder than other great guitarists, it’s the total package there. The stage, mood, lighting, his music..it just completes the entire act.

MSN conversation just a few seconds ago:

I’ve been having this urge for the past few months, the urge so strong that made me pick up from where I left off 5 years ago. Well, not exactly picking up but more of catching up And I find myself struggling with the lack of equipment. What exactly am I talking about here? LOL! I’m now at the start of fulfilling my dream – to be a better, faster, crazier lead guitarist than I used to be!

There’s not many things that I would regret but there is one, where I sold off my beloved electric guitar. Now, due to financial constraint, I can’t afford to simply purchase one. I’d have to make do with a semi-acoustic with very low tolerance for action and that really suck!

Been practicing for 2 months now and I really don’t know how I’m progressing, well sort of. Faster? Not really, in fact very slow :s Crazier? Yes! Can’t help it when the strings “twang” so much cause of it’s low action nature :s Not to mention that my fingers are a mess! My callouses are falling off my fingers, literally!! So the process have to stop for a week while I wait for my raw fingers to heal.

I know it’s kinda weird practicing lead with a semi-acoustic, I have no choice. Well, who knows, it’s harder to play lead on an acoustic so it’ll be easier when I land my hands on an electric! And it sure did! A friend asked me to accompany her to get a  guitar today, so we went to this shop in Sri Petaling. She got herself and acoustic while I spotted a white electric beauty! Picked it up and I had this overwhelming sense of dejavu. Then tried some riffs on it, and WHOA! Surprised myself! I guess my theory made sense after all! It was definitely easier! Made the guitar sing like never before and I had this little sense of satisfaction that I still got if after all these years

On another note, I stumbled across a guitarist called Sugizo in Youtube. He’s insanely talented!! Love the way he plays, the precision and speed yet full of emotions. He’s going to be my new inspiration to push myself harder to become what I want to be, a better, faster, crazier lead guitarist!

p/s: Slash, you are still my biggest idol!!

(ever wonder why great guitarists have names starting with the letter “S”?? steve vai, slash, sugizo..etc)

Just came back from an awesome New Year’s party! Never thought my day will end like this I was bored the whole day with nowhere to go. Friends are all over the place except in Penang! Had BBQ dinner with my family in the kampung, which was really nice. Then I decided that I want 2009 to end with something better than sitting at home and watch TV.

So I headed out to a place called Ikki, a friend recommended me that place. It was kinda strange when I first walked in, there were tons of PLUs there and I was alone at the bar. I was quickly made to feel home by the hostess there who introduced me to everyone in that place! How awesome is that?! And boy, those people really know how to party!! And soon enough a girl (pretty hot I reckon) introduced herself (again LOL) to me and bought me drinks! Not one but 3!! I guess she was too drunk to remember HAHA! Which reminded me of the sms chat I had with Oscar earlier before the party started. She’s an astrologer and just for the fun of it, asked me to ask her for a prediction. So I asked if I would meet anyone at Ikki. She predicted that I would meet a drunk girl, and that girl will ask me to take her home! Wow…hmm..seem far fetched LOL! But it did happened!

So as the party went on, one of the girls were trying to get me drunk but I dunk most of my beer into someone else’s glass HEHE because I don’t drink. Besides, the hot girl that bought me drinks helped me with the beer After around 1pm, I decided I wanted to leave cause I can’t avoid drinking anymore and that hot girl told me to accompany her, she said she want me to accompany her till someone takes her home (like literally take her home for you know what). Uh oh…is that a hint???? Anyway, I stayed abit longer. Well, as you can probably guess, I’m in my room at 2.30am writing this post, I did not take her home.

Well, it was a great party with really down to earth people! So, my day did turn up the way I wanted it, to celebrate New Year with a blast!

New years come and go. The year 2009 is almost ending and I’m looking forward to it, not because it marks a new beginning of a year but for the lessons that 2009 taught me and I’m ready to brave 2010 with with my new experiences. As I was thinking this morning about the events that happened during 2009 and it struck me that I don’t have any glimpse of how I celebrated the end of 2008!! I FORGOT!! How could it be?? Was it really that unmemorable or I just didn’t care anymore? Sigh…with all the time spent recalling, for fuck sake I just can not remember at all. Then came this theory, subconsciously my brain and heart is trying to forget..wait, not trying, it’s literally forgetting the events during 2008 which messes with me physically and emotionally. I guess it’s a defense mechanism to wipe out the past so I have room for the present and future.

But’s it is kinda weird, it’s like I’m suffering from this period of amnesia where one year of memories are wiped off and left a big gap in me. This is crazy…maybe I should go to the docs for some checks..or maybe it is just me forgetting the past so it wouldn’t be that much of a burden for me to carry anymore?

Anyway, I’ll figure this out…I think.

Christmas is over and I’m feeling indifferent. I’m stuck in Penang and bored to death. Hence, the free time to surf the net. Talking about surfing the net, I was in one of those networking webbies and met someone new. I really surprised myself with my own reaction towards that person! She literally took my breath and self reservation away and got my heart pumping like I mad! Is it a crush? or something else? I don’t know. I just know that I haven’t felt like this for a long time. Strangely enough, I hate this feeling. It is bittersweet. I know now is not the right time to think about dating and stuff like that because it wouldn’t be fair to the other party due to my work schedule. I’m stuck…no idea what to do now.

Never in a million years I thought I would be back to dancing again! Dancing was basically out of my life once I left college into the working world. I still remembered how I got involved in dancing. It was a desperate move back then. I knew I needed more credits to qualify for overseas university and heard that the college is offering 2 extra fast credits if we to joined in some extra curriculum besides the usual ones. So as usual, I was running late to register and the only option left was the dance class. To hell with it, I signed up.

It was one of the toughest things I’ve ever landed myself in! We are to be judged on 6 choreographed dance and 1 on freestyle. To make things worse, we only have 3 months to do so! Luckly enough, a friend who was a professional dancer offered to coach me through the routine. I had to endure 5 hours of training daily from the basic ballet to the modern hip hop. It was really awkward at first because I don’t really have great body awareness and kinda stumbled through the first couple of days. Eventually I got the hang of it and began to love dancing! I discovered that my forte is in contemporary. Days wheezed by and it was finally THE DAY. It was really nerve wrecking as I’ve never done anything like this before. But we managed to pull through all the routines and I was really proud of what we’ve done! Hehe

So anyway, that was the past and now I’m into dancing again. It first started out voluntarily for an event that my friend was hosting. Got over it and done. And now, there’s more plans to come with dancing and now we even have a name, PLDC. LOL! I’m really excited with what’s to come because it’s going to involve so many genres of dances that I’ve yet had the chance to explore! It’s gonna be great and I’m looking forward to it